Which game are you playing?

During my period of playing Christian there were certain things you would and wouldn't do on a Saturday night before church. You will try your best to not sin in anyway. You would listen to gospel music all night because you are trying to create and 'atmosphere'. If for some you reason you were suppose to minister, thats when you are super Holy on Saturday and Sunday. After being repententant (sometimes) for the weekend, you turn right back to what you were doing before. Hypocritical don't you think?
So now we're saved and everything is great. We are on fire for Jesus and our ministry is great. But the things we use to do we still do. Things like what you ask? The music we listen to, the way we speak, the clothes we wear are all the same. We find ourselves saying I cant listen to this song tonight church in the morning or I cant go out tonight because I have church in the morning. If we believe we cant do it a night before church why do we do it at all? Dosent that mean in someway that we know what were doing is wrong. We believe we can do it every other day but the days surrounding church. Notice I say we because this is something God is revealing to me of late. On the road to living the Holy life we are called to there are somethings that God sees that we dont that he has to help us work on. Recently this is one for me.
Lets becareful of what we say and do. Our lives should reflect Christ always. So a few questions to ask yourself when you feel confused. What would Jesus do? Can I pray before it, through it or after it? Use these questions and I know that God would be able to choose wisely.

Love is in the air

I found myself asking the question lately who is God to me. Not the who people tell me he should be but who he really is to me. I came up with a few things. Father and friend being two of them. But then my mind ran on 'Lover of my Soul' and I wondered "is God the lover of my soul". And to myself I replied no. I went in search of the answer why. I asked friends what they thought, I spoke to God about it and I got no definite answer until tonight.
On the balcony with some friends, chatting about friendship and relationship it hit me. We don't know true love unless we know God. What it Love? 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8 reads " Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."
This is what love is. I made a checklist. Is God patient with me and I with him? Am I in anyway envious if him or him me? Does he boast or is he full of pride and Am I? And the list went on and on. After finishing my checklist i deduced on thing. God is the Lover of my soul. He loves me and I love him. There is no big spark that needs to take place. No physical reaction to happen. God loves me and I him. Not the love that is superficial and only comes about when we receive something we desire. Not the kind of love that slips away when we don't get our own way. Not the kind of love that is conditional, but true love. Real love. The kind of love that can only be shared once it is experienced. Now I can sing with all assurity "I love you Lord and I life my voice" Love is the most excellent way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Who are you?

I often look at persons involved in ministry and see how sucessful they are and wonder how can I be like them. I've been to places where the opening prayer had the church in a disarray and on the ground. I've seen where one song could upset and entire meeting. I have seen where the piano being played invites a spirit of worship and have persons meet with God.I often asked God when will I be able to lead people into your presence like that. When will I be able to sing one song and just have people worship like that. When will I be able to pray and the sick be healed. Lord when will that be me.
And then sometime in the space of yesterday and today I realised how many times I said 'I' in those conversations.I didn't care about what God wanted, I cared about what I could do. I cared abput what I wanted to do. It was about bring glory to God on my terms and in my own way. I had to cry out to God this morning. Begging and pleading for forgiveness. All I want really is to please him. To be able to serve him not because I Know I should but because I love him. It really isnt about me at all. And we sing the song and I honestly believe that we mean it sometimes, but in some way we are still waiting to hear "You did a great job today' or "wow you killed it: or "You were excellent" when really it isnt about you. Those persons didnt come to see or hear you. They dont want you. They dont want me. They dont care about how well we can sing, preach, pray. They want Jesus. They just want Jesus.
I cried soooooooooooooo much this morning because I realised how much I was trying to take Glory for myself and it wasnt mine to have. And to me, my pride was dealt with but it came in so subtlely. I realised it when I would get upset that someone didnt choose me to minister or when after I felt i did a good job, no one commended me. God had to teach me that no other opinion mattered other than his own. And now I can comfortably say that nothing else matters if his presence lives in me. I dont have to sing one more note, I dont need to pray for anyone, I dont even have to be an usher, as long as I know he is pleased with me. I can with all confidence say "Its all about him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Its EASTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi my friends, I know its been a while. I had laptop woes! Blessing to you and yours on this blessed day. In church this morning I was truly blessed. Our Pastor spoke on the resurrection power that we have within us. Boy was that exciting. He went to almot all the examples of the dead being raised from the dead. It really had me thinking about the power we have as believers. Think about it man, we have the power to raise persons from the dead, to cast out devils. Ha...how wonderful God is to us. As we go through today lets not only reflect on the fact that we Christ ied and rose again but also of the power we have as believers. Be Blessed my people.