Again, Again and Again

Again I call you and again you answerAgain I need you and again you're thereAgain I reach out and again you hold meYou console me once more, and again
DONNIE MCCLURKIN - AGAIN LYRICS

Again and Again I fail God. 
Again and Again I disobey His Word.
Again and Again what I desire holds more weight than what He says.
Again and Again sin leaves a bitter after taste that I do not like yet
Again and Again I end  up in this position. 

Feeling lost, alone, so unworthy. 
I feel like soon, if it hasn't happened already,
That my 70 x 7 will soon run out. 
I feel like there is so much I can do. 
I see the warning signs. 
The enemy has no creativity when coming to me. 
Yet I allow him to win these small battles. 
I allow what I want and feel to get in the way of God and I

The thing is though that I focus so much on fixing me all on my own,
That I never go to Jesus. 
The more my shortcomings show is the more I'm reminded of two things. 

1. There is no way I can do it on my own. God knew that we couldn't fix ourselves. So he sent Jesus. Whose blood has the power to save  us from ourselves. Jesus is our VICTORY. He has already won the war. 

2. His grace is sufficient. Paul spoke about never boasting in himself but boasting in his short comings. He wanted us to understand that the he was nothing compared to Jesus. That His strength came as a result of the power of Jesus in his life. He could do nothing. 

Likewise, Jesus can help us say no to flesh, because from what I've learnt, flesh will always be there. We will always have the need to satisfy our needs, whether they are what God wants for us or not. 

Saying no to our flesh and choosing to be living sacrifices is something we need to do daily. Its a continuous process until that day when the Lover of our Souls comes to take us home. 

So my friends, do not  believe the lies the enemy tells you. God loves you. He wants nothing but the best for you. 

Every time I turn around, the most amazing thing I've foundYou're there to pick me up each time when I fall downYou never seem to mind and you're always treating me so kindTime after every time, you've proven once again
DONNIE MCCLURKIN - AGAIN LYRICS

God Bless you all. :D 

What I learned from Acts 7: 44-60

I do not like being corrected. I mean who does? Who wants to know they didn’t do a good job here or their attitude needs an adjustment. Especially when in our minds we do not see what the person correcting us sees. Maybe it’s how they correct us or who corrects us that sometimes gets us so angry. Maybe it’s the fact that we know we have to change and we are embarrassed at the fact that God has to use others to tell us. We use the opportunity to say things like “well I’m not perfect” or “He’s still working on me” to make ourselves feel better. Whatever the reason, we do not like others correcting us. 

                The truth of the matter is though, that we aren’t perfect. Here’s another truth, that’s why Jesus came. Another is that our pride gets in the way of our growth sometimes because we fail to hear what is being said to us. Our response is to become defensive. We fit in imaginary ear plugs and ‘smile and nod’ so that others think we are listening. In verses 44-53, Stephen preached about the wickedness in the hearts of men.  He rebuked the people and was chased out of the city. He continued to preach even then and was stoned to death by the very people he preached too. They didn’t want to hear what they did. They didn’t seem interested in hearing about a Saviour either. It seemed like they wanted the source of their conviction to stop.

                We must humble ourselves and take responsibility for our actions. We must understand that we have not yet arrived, neither will we. From time to time we will slip up, or display areas in our lives that need a little pruning, or God will reveal to us things that we still need to work on. We must listen. We must be able to take the correction, work on it and come out victorious.  Humility is key…

                The term ‘fool for Christ’ just became real to me. We often look down on people who stand on the side of the road preaching the Gospel in the loudest of voices.  We look down at the ones with the signs on their backs saying ‘Jesus is coming soon’. What about the ones who walk around with cards in protest against gay marriages, or the ones who go to lay hands on a mosque during the month of Ramadan, to pray that the souls come to Christ. The things these people do, we often see as nuances and embarrassing are things that God calls us to. Stephen was a fool for Christ. In verse 56 of chapter 7, looks into the sky and starts describing what he sees. To the people standing there he must have been crazy, because no one else could see what he saw.  Sometimes God will give you a vision that only you can see. Others will doubt you, question you, call you a fool. Hold on to what you have seen. God vindicates His people. Hope in God never fails. (Rom 8.)

                With the last breaths that Stephen had he asked that God forgive His murderers.  Stephen cared about the lives of the very people that took his. He cared that the souls of these people who treated him the way they did. He was concerned about those who did evil against him, who spoke evil against him. Love and bless those who curse you. Allow God to vindicate you. God always has your best interest at heart. Rejoice in your hard times and in the sad times. Love others with an unconditional love. The same love that your Heavenly Father loves you with. 

No need to worry...

God is enough and that's the end. This weekend gone kept reminding me that there is no problem to big for Him to handle. I know some people reading this may be thinking what issues and problems does this always chipper young adult have? She has no clue what it means to be abandoned by an entire family. She doesn't know whats it means to be jobless, money less, in debt, homeless, hungry because she doesn't have. She doesn't have kids to feed and a household to support. She doesn't know what it means to be terminally depresses. Her problems are minute to mine. She has somewhere to sleep, she doesn't have t live paycheck to paycheck and all the other issues that this life throws at us.

Even though what I have been through isn't what you have experienced or are experiencing, I still know that God is Greater than them all. He reminded me today that as His children, we have favour, we are over comers, we are on the winning side and that with Him there is nothing that we cannot handle.

Friends, God is so big. He is so great. He is so Mighty. I encourage you to trust and hold on to Him and His promises. God is more than enough. My Spirit rejoices because because even though I have never been in debt, or terminally ill, or went hungry because I didn't have, I know and believe with all my heart and soul that He can and He will pull you through. There is no problem to big or to hard for my God; for our God. Don underestimate His power.

God Bless you!

The life...

Life becomes so busy sometimes that we barely have time to think. We go through a day of work, school, hustle and bustle barely finding time for ourselves. We say we will get some time in before bed but by the time we get to bed we are already asleep. Sigh! Life becomes so fast paced and exhausting we forget that we need to rest. Rest is very important for not only our physical body but our mental, emotional and spiritual. God rested when He created the earth  so why do we believe that rest is for the dead. 

Yesterday after a long day I sat in the silence and took a few deep breaths. How refreshing! I can still feel the wind on my face as the Lord seem to be saying enter my rest my child. So that's what I did. In the silence, just for a few minutes I relaxed. It is there the Lord spoke to me. It was there that the Lord gave me directions. It was there that He reminded me of His unconditional love for me. 

So try it! Take a few moments. Separate yourself from everything and everyone. Go outside and bask in the glory of your Heavenly Father's creation and just breathe! :) Have a great day Friends! 

Just a thought...

So I have learnt over the last couple of months that people can do some crazy and silly things for love and acceptance. Not just the love and acceptance of a significant other but the love and acceptance of their peers, family, even people we don't know. Whats also interesting is we do even crazier things when that love is reciprocated. We lash out, we pout, we speak negatively of others. All because we didn't feel loved or acceptance from others.

But I smile even as I'm writing this because I have come to know the God who is Friend, Father and Lover of my Soul. The one who's love me is unshakable, unchangeable and best of all unconditional. He is the God who I can lean on, He is the God I can cry to, the one I can run to. It is truly a privileged to have relationship with one who will never leave me, never abandon me, never 'break dates'. He is the God who is ever present. In His presence I am a princess and I feel like royalty. I thank God for the privileged to know Him. I thank God for teaching me how to love. I thank God for showing me how I should be treated by those who claim to love me. My prayer is that you to can experience such love. It is life transforming. :)

God Bless You all!