Today was an interesting day so far. Couple months ago God asked of me to wake at five thirty to spend time with him. It sounds easy enough right but that is so not the case. I am a college students who's classes are mostly at night and who studies at night. After my classes finish at nine and i get out of class mode, then to study a bit maybe work on a paper, my night fiinishes at 2 AM for the earliest. It was a good cycle to have. Sleep in the day and study at night and i was very cool with that. So you can understand my predicament.
I must say that this feat has not been an easy one. I have tried everything from alarm clocks to hjust plain staying up all night until five thirty. nothing seems to work. I may get up today but tomorow i sleep straight through. Its really difficult mainly because i feel like i'm a failure. I know that there is a reason why God requires that i wake up and even if i dont see it right now i know that there is a reason. SO since the semester has started on Monday i have managed to wake up on Tuesday and today and it has been working out well. i have managed to wake up and pray but most times i go back to bed. And u must be thinking, 'why wasnt she doing that all the time?' To tell you the truth i just dont know. My problem is not waking up but rather staying up. Seems silly u know but it is a real issue.
i guess i say this all to say, friends it is not abt you. Its not abt me. Its abt God and what he requires of us. Many times we dont understand why things happen the way they do or why God would ask us to do things that are hard for us. i wonder these things all the time.But then i'm reminded that its not abt me or what i want. Its not abt me being comfortable. Its not abt me being liked. Its not abt me at all. Its abt God and his work that we're doing. So my word of encouragement for today 10th February 2009 id always be obedient. No matter what God how uncomfortable of far fetched it seems. Obedience is better than sacrifice!
Attempting to get up early to pray but falling back to sleep after much less than 5 minutes..... i know that drill.... it's a fact though that when we have pressing issues and we need a miracle, we manage to get off the bed on those mornings and get on our knees and plead our case.... sad reality... we ought to develop that discipline (me included)... because we ALWAYS NEED GOD!! and we ALWAYS NEED to maintain that CONSTANT intimate relationship with Him...
ReplyDeleteNeways, love ur message, obedience is the way, difficult at times cuz our own way seems a lot nicer and easier.... i mean, sleep is really really hard to give up... but in the end, talking to God, asking for His guidance and His will to be done in ur life is worth the sacrifice.... if only we cud see the end result of our prayer before we actually pray, i'm sure we'd all be up at 3 in the morning to pray.... :)
Good job chic! keep it up :)