The point of creating this blog was to share the everyday (well almost everyday) life of myself as a Christian young person. To avoid all pretense and to be honest about my joys, sorrows, victories and struggles. The more I think about it however, I realise that I have been pretending. The very thing I despise is the thing that I am becoming. I never say when I am struggling. I always come with the victory story after.So here is me coming clean.
Most times when I have not writtn for awhile is because I have nothing to say. When I have nothing to say is when my relationship with God has taken a backburner and I am focusing more on something else. This something else being anything from school work to persons to a job I may have to do. It sucks because at those times I feel the furthest from God.
This also occurs when God ask you to do something and you are disobedient. School is out and for us at the school I attend we usually have one last big outing before we all leave for the break. This year like always we went to see a movie. We planned this outing for awhile so I was really pumped. While getting dressed God told me not to go. I reasoned with God so much about it being the last time most of us will see eachother because they graduated and I still went. Since then I have not been able to really feel the presence of God around me. I know I was disobedient and I have repented for it over an over again. And this isnt the first time.
So what do you do when because u dont feel God's presence around you? What do you do when u dont feel like worshipping because u feel like ur not being heard? What do u do when u dont feel like reading ur Bible because God is saying nothing to u through his Word? What do you do?
As Christians we dont operate on feelings. How we feel is never to be trusted. our hearts can lead us astray and into danger we dont see coming. So what do I do? I choose to worship. I choose to read God's Word and I choose to pray. It doesnt matter how i feel. God's promises are secure because he cannot lie. His WORD says that he will NEVER leave me or forsake me. And I hold firm to that promise. So even though right now I done 'feel' him, I know that he is here.
Nataki I'm so proud of you, you are growing up. Everything we do is by faith and remember once we confess our sins he is faithful and just to forgive us and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.1 John 1:9 also remember that there is therefor now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus Romans 8:1.
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