While being in the choir, I developed a facination with late night television. The type that is not fitting for a Christian. I would come home late from rehearsals, sit in front of the television, and the most entertaining thing on television to me were the pornographic material that plagues the te;levision at those hours. I told myself it was ok, because I only watch it for the story line or its how I'm learning about sex, or I'm just watching it, I wont do it. And that became my song. I would feel so convicted after the fact, I would repent and then got the same thing again. It was now a habbit that I did not want to break.
So soon enough, the most important thing to me was this choir. Traveling not only around the country but around the world and I was happy. I was out of my house, around people who I soon began to imitate. I did not want to become like them but I had to fit in and it was the only way I know how. The year I strted college was an awesome one for me. It was bitter sweet because on the good side, I would be away from home, have control of finances intrusted to me and be in charge of my own life. The bitter part being that I would be away from the choir and it would suck not being around people who have grown to be friends.
I began school wondering how I was going to cope. I lived on campus, with a bunch of 'super Holy' people, who didnt seem t have a life outside of God. The frumpy type Christians. I was determined to be comfortable in both environments and soon I was the best actor ever. I knew how to fit in on campus witht he superholy and off with the not so Holy ones.
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