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So what do you do when you don't feel like praying? When the feelings of hurt, pain, disgust, resentment, hatred, envy and defeat take over? The very feelings you ask God to get rid of in you, because you know you cannot do it on your own. What do you do when they come. What do you do when although you experience the favour of God on and in your life, the disappointments seem to out weigh them? When you feel as if no one cares? Although you know that God does in theory. You know God loves you, he cares and that he is working on you in theory? What do you do when you feel so unloved, uncared for and overlooked that you cry yourself to sleep most nights. Even though you still trust in the fact that you know God is with you and he will get you through it. How do you deal with the fact that everyone else is happy in their being blessed and in seems contiuous? That there not so happy times come few and far between and the ast a lot shorter than yours. How do you beieve that their is potential in you, when no one else seems to see it and notice it? How do you go through life when it seems that once your happy, something bad is soon coming> Something that disappoints you, hurts you so much that you start wondering if it would be easier in the world. How do you not use a measure your life against others because it is about you and God and not you and anyone else. How do you deal with changes in you not being noticed? How do you deal with the issues that arise when you try your best to do everything right or try your best and it is never acknowledged? When everything you had went into it and it is looked at as nothing? How do you deal with not being able to diffrenciate between your heart and the voice of God? How do you deal?

If I had the answers to these questions I probably would not have been writing this blog. At present, t is exactly how I feel. And I know people care. I know people love me. I know they are there. I still feel this way. I know it all in theory. I understand it because it is said. I guess i just dont feel it.

The only thing I know is that the promises of God are sure. That they stand and are sure. So is is the only thing I can put my faith in. It is the only thing that keeps me going. The promises of God are true! So no matter what you are going through or feel now, God sees you, he hears your crying and he promises that it will get better.
God said it and that settles it!